When I was 22 I had an incredible encounter with God in which the main issue was my pride. It was a 'watershed' moment in my life and I have never been the same. One would assume that having dealt with pride as a major turning point I would be the 'poster boy' of humility. Not the case...
I have a chronic case of RHS - 'red hen' syndrome. When I ask for help and get a negative answer, my natural tendency is to say, "then I will do it myself..." And I usually do. We have been able to do a lots of wonderful things in our years of ministry but they probably would have been more fruitful if I didn't suffer from RHS. I have secretly taken pride in the fact that we have 'persevered' in the face of financial adversity and huge challenges without the help of others.
It sounds a lot like the Apostle Peter. He says 'I will never leave you...' And then betrays the Lord.
He says, 'you're not washing my feet...' but when he gets the big picture he asks for an unnecessary bath...
Jesus calls him a Rock and then has to rebuke him as Satan. What a guy!
He was also the only guy who stepped out of the boat and walked on water. He failed in part, as he succeeded in doing what others didn't dare to try, by faith.
He had an issue with pride that was broken again and again. Direct rebukes from Jesus (even once from the Father!), rebukes from the church, rebukes from Paul...
I have recently but gently been rebuked again. My pride feeds my fears and I need to just trust God to take care of me. It is hard but good. It defies my logic but our ways are not His ways.
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